Lovely

We just got back from going to Pillsbury Crossing. It is so much fun!! I never thought that I could jump off of a cliff into the water in Kansas!! But I did!! Tomorrow we start our second week of school. It already seems like we’ve been here for about a year! I feel like I’ve known these people my entire life. I’m beginning to cherish those quiet times that I have to myself, though. I’m not used to being around people my age 24/7. I love my roommate! We get along so well!! I think that it’s cool having someone to share a room with. All my life I’ve slept in my own room, never having to share anything. Now, it’s definitely not like that! Yes, it’s different, but it’s a good different. I’m really not looking forward to tomorrow. I don’t understand chapter 3 in Chemistry at all!! It’s because I missed an hour of the lecture over it because I was at Lafene Health Center getting my wrist looked at!! I’m actually quite stressed about it! On top of that, my group in RoadMaps hasn’t started on our project yet! Although I like socializing and having free time, I’m beginning to think that it’s not all it’s cracked up to be. I didn’t come to college to goof off all the time. I came here to better myself and my education. I feel like I’m failing myself by not studying 24/7 or not understanding something. I guess that I shouldn’t be so hard on myself though. I can’t really help it if I don’t understand something unless I wasn’t listening in class. It’s just that I’ve gone through my life working as hard as I can because I had something to prove! But here, I feel as if nobody is watching. I guess I’m just rambling on now. I had a lot on my mind. I’m constantly thinking about what needs to be done and stressing myself out because it isn’t done yet. I’m so nervous for my first chemistry test. I really hope that I don’t fail it! In high school, I was a straight A student. Here, I don’t know what I’m going to be. Of course I hope that I can achieve a 4.0, but I know that it won’t be easy. I didn’t realize how badly I get anxious about things. College sure does bring out the best in people I guess.